Dani M.

Hey kiddo...

We'll start on a good note and go from there.
That not so tiny little man your holding and kissing and wishing the best for right now, is growing up to be an incredible young man. Even though you'll feel like your failing him at times, he knows above all else, that you love him.
He's been handed the crap end of the stick a lot. Some things you could have avoided, some were beyond your control. Through it all however, he has maintained his sweet, kind, considerate nature. He still hugs and kisses you when you drop him off to school. He still reaches for your hand while he sits in the passenger seat of the car. He's getting older, and smellier, and he has your attitude..good luck with that by the way.
He's not the only little person to steal your heart however. You have 2 little girls too, and another baby on the way. I know you must be blown away right now. Trust me. It is possible to love them as much as you love Mason.
No, their dad is not who you're with right now, and your first princess isn't from who you're with now.. but believe me - the man you marry in the end and have your little blonde beauty with, he is going to love your kids just as much as you do. I know that's a lot to take and I'm sure now you're reeling but believe me it's so worth all you've gone through. He'll teach how you deserve to be treated: he makes you feel safe, loved and appreciated. You'll never have any doubt about how he really feels about you.
But before you get there, you need to know that your current relationship is poison. You'll see that someday, before someone ends up getting really hurt.
Next, you'll have your heart broken - don't keep yourself from that experience, but keep in mind that when it ends (and it will) hold it together. He is just a stepping stone to where your meant to be. Remembering that may save you months of the most excruciating pain you may ever feel. 
You heal though. 
You get through. 
You learn.
Then you meet Blake (he's the one I just told you about). 
Don't do a damn thing differently! This is where your last 28 years for crap  turn around (ya, sorry, you've got 6 years of growing to get to this part). You get married and have a baby and just over a year later you'll be pregnant again (and in that order. You did it smart this time, marriage then babies).
Oh by the way, You find GOD!! Don't roll your eyes. You're in this amazing kind of peace that you didn't know existed before. This tingly feeling comes over you, and you know, without a doubt that no matter what, you're loved and cared for. This time is different. Just trust me.
If you keep the mind set you have right now, life may seem lame. You'll be disappointed. You're not rich, or skinny, you don't have a beautiful mansion or a sick job. You'll need to get past that. It will keep you from truly enjoying the riches you already have.
Hang in there kid. You have a long, shitty road ahead, but you pull it together, promise. It's not easy, but it makes you the strong, compassionate, loving mother, wife and friend you are now.
Oh, and you get a sweet tat. Figured you'd like that one :) 

Love,
   Me..well, you.